death of playfulness
In the journey of searching for truth, I have stumbled upon a question of playfulness and experimentation. I have noticed that many times I have an idea I would like… Continue Reading
fragile spaghetti world
In software development, there is a fabulous term called “spaghetti code”. This term usually reflects the quality with which the software architecture of the application has been designed: a messy,… Continue Reading
closing the gap
Growing up does not guarantee you a transition from a child to a grown-up. Growing up is a process defined by the laws of nature, not laws of wisdom. In… Continue Reading
transitioning between emotional states
Sometimes I wonder why I am so bitter :). How one euphoric state, feeling of being at the top of the world can fade so quickly away and a feeling… Continue Reading
empowering authenticity
As we slowly discover the castle walls that we have built in our childhood as a coping mechanism of not being authentic, we start to wonder who we were before… Continue Reading
ego wants, ego envy, ego laughs
Recently I have been thinking about the topic of failure and its impact on finding the ultimate truth in life. While I was thinking about it an ego attacked. Ego… Continue Reading
false sense of security called plan
Recently I have had a phone conversation with my father in which he has asked: “so what is your plan going forward?”. After many years of planning, trying to have… Continue Reading
learning for the right reason
Learning can feel like a burden or like an amazing journey. Learning can be overwhelming or tremendously satisfying. Learning can bring anxiety of feeling “not being enough” or can make… Continue Reading
time is not a judge
As I am getting for my meditation, my coffee is slowly getting cold. I am sitting down towards my lovely practice of silence and then my mind fires: “don’t get… Continue Reading
failure as a label of our judgemental mind
If I tell you that failure does not really exist, you might be skeptical at first. We go through our lives with worry about the past and the future. Worry that is generated by our ego, more specifically by our prehistoricOS. One of the objects ego generates is FEAR (with capital letters). We FEAR not to fail. Not to fail others, not to fail ourself or more precisely, not to fail our belief system. All these objects are products of the past or future but when we realise, that they are not real, that they cannot really exist in the now, interesting things start to happen. All this might sound too woo-woo, but lets take a story from a real life. My own story.